never giving up

No matter where or how bad any place will be, no matter how much others take advantage of me i will endure. One day our lord shall come and show them all his wrath. I will endure like how me ancestor did, all their fighting to make their children life better. Hence i will never give up, my father and mom has fight soo much; thought they are also the ones that hurt me the most i still will endure for them. For a better tomorrow i shall endure. Endure till death, endure like i always did, never give up, never, never give up.

Growing up

Remember when u were young , small, and weak. u will need the protection of someone; however when u grow older under protection for too a long time. You strated to feel been restricted, chained down to something or by something. So you yern to break free to breath the so call new air.

i used to wander as a Houseman, as to when will be given the right to made decision to decide upon the life of someone. Always blaming others, thinking if i were the one working on it, i could have save the patient or made his life much better.

well, after his blessing i was given the chance; but now i remember only under the guidance or protection of someone can you truly feel bliss. The so call invisible chain when think back is actually never a chain but string with someone pulling at the end to guide you down the right path. ironic, this actually can be picture as a poor cow been drag against his will.

so now i got what i wanted to do everything on my own, let's pray for the best and hope nothing happen.

To a new hope

2th August, a fateful day, the day i left my usual world to a new land without knowing. Here am I ,in the land of hornbills,Sarawak, till today.
For the moment i am still breathing, surviving under all his almighty grace, and his blessings.
Now every decision i made affect the life of a living fellow mate; things which i do not know i still have to procede. Oh god, forgive this poor soul of his sinful act. Every time i discharge a patient i discharge base on my premature knowledge of mine.
I may very well know the fact that they will need further monitoring and treatment, however with such limited resources and experience i have to made this judgment.
So far nothing has happen, but i hope really nothing will happen. Tomorrow should be better i guess, let us all hope for the best.