Mad world

I always loved some soft peaceful music as the background of some war video; both which contradict so much, where war is supposed to be violent and hectic; however when combined it sends out a feeling of sadness to remind us the cruelty of war. I once heard something which combines a news reporting Vietnam war with the song "silent night" as their background, the author's purpose was to show how much those soldier miss Christmas when doing battle in a foreign ground, indirectly spreading the word of peace.

Below is something much or less the same, except it uses an X-box game gears of war as it's theme and the song mad world by Gary Jules as its background music.

My philosophy- by the flow

Never expect an idiot like me could have some real good things hidden up my sleeve, hehehehe. Well i have been living my life base on an very famous Chinese philosophy, today i will like to introduce u all to Tao, founded by Lao Zi.So who is this famous philosopher, all i can say he has been lifted to the status of deity believing he will change the world at that time. To say his teaching really influence a lot of Chinese thinking, in fact he was the teacher of Confucius. So what is Tao, according to his famous book Dao De, the first phrase clearly described what is Tao, 道可道非常道, 名可名非常名, in translation, if Dao can be explained then it is not Dao, if Dao can be
named then it is not Dao. Get it, hahahaha, don't get that confuse look at me, i know it does not explained anything. But this is Dao, it was suppose to be confusing, or else how is it going to fit that first explanation. In my opinion, Dao is the Law of universe, it can be anything, much like physics, which uses theory to explain the relationship between objects.

Since it is the law of universe, what it really means is to go by the flow, follow the flow let nothing else influence you. Like the Tai Chi having 2 Substance ever trying to consume each other, in the end create a steady flow. What really impresses me is the fact that just this simple theory been the basis of Chinese thinking, from military, to politics, to Fenshui, and Chinese traditional medicine.

For example Chinese traditional medicine, believe our organ having 2 energy, Yin and Yang, and this 2 is in ever balance, if there is disruption of this balance the organ failed. So base on the signs and symptoms, we must prescribe medicine to enrich either Yin and Yang. Simple, now it just made me wonders why should i ever take up "Western medicine", Haiz.........

What i like is it influence in Chinese military, of course this cannot be explained by simple Yin and Yang. This will need to be explained by "law of the nature", like the flow of water, a mind has to be the likes of water ever changing.

So what about me, what does it got to do with me, ha ha ha ha, lets say i am together with nature, enjoying the fresh breeze blowing on my face, together with nature ever in peace, following the flow of time, the flow of nature. Actually what i want to say is i just want to be Lazy, not doing anything therefor together in one piece with nature. Get it, all of you dumb ass. hahahahaha

My view of Malaysia- election

After observing and learning so many years of politics, all gone to dust as i was still unable to participate in this important event which could decide the fate of my country, thanks to IMU exam's, i did not sign in to vote, hai........... Anyway, I wasn't quite clear about Malaysia's politics because it does not have much suspense in it, i meant Malaysia politics is just like that for years and will still be for years to come. 1 think for sure is that most Malaysian are politically illiterate and their understanding of politics are very superficial often paying attention to not so important news. Well like i say since it is that boring, and i could not do much to change it, i have not pay much attention to it at all, so i myself is quite an illiterate too.
It will be much better to talk Malaysia from the world's point of view, basically Malaysia is rated as 1 of the lowest in human rights so don't be too proud thinking we are in a free country, in fact we aren't any step further away from Singapore, if u are observant enough it won't be hard to see this. The second things is Malaysia's identity, whether is it a secular country or Islamic state, actually Malaysia is just in between which is why it is a very special country, this issue has been seal off, but the debate is still on. Military point of view, the geographic location of Malaysia is another important factor, since the founding of Melaka till now the straits of Melaka is still an important strait as it connect east Asia to Europe. That is why American are willing or even trying to place a base over here using pirates as an excuse. And economic wise, Malaysia is till been ruled by some tycoon which does not allow space for growth for free trading, in simple words these tycoon are monopolizing our market and then manipulate it to benefit themselves given little chance for small local investor to grow or expend. Which is even worst then China, since china yield more return in investment but Malaysia nil.
Having all that said, Malaysia is still a nice country to live in, and in fact our new prime minister is a caliber person, I do hope he continue on ruling Malaysia but it was certain he is hands tied by many issues. If u ask me i would stay here in Malaysia and will like too. In fact the whole world is the same, and even worst when compared to Malaysia.

New deciding factor for med school ?

Personality as a Prognostic Factor for Specialty Choice: A Prospective Study of 4 Medical School Classes

Abstract
Background: To augment the availability of medical care for a population that is older and more ethnically diverse, the number of US medical schools is increasing and existing medical schools are enlarging their class sizes. Predictors of specialty choice, especially primary care careers, are helpful to medical school officials and faculty involved in medical school recruitment and counseling and to students planning their career paths.
Objective: The objective was to examine the association between personality characteristics and specialty choice.
Methods: The Neuroticism-Extraversion-Openness Personality Inventory Revised (NEO PI-R) was administered to 4 Tulane University School of Medicine (New Orleans, Louisiana) classes (2003-2006). The NEO PI-R is a measure of 5 personality characteristics (neuroticism, extraversion, openness, agreeableness, and conscientiousness), with each domain having 6 underlying facets. The specialty choice of graduates was obtained from the National Residency Matching Program.
Results: Starting in 1999, 595 students matriculated and by June 2006, 542 (91%) had matched to residency programs in 22 specialties. There were differences among specialties for neuroticism (P = .006), openness (P < .001), and agreeableness (P = .003), but not for extraversion (P = .173) or conscientiousness (P = .103). Various pairwise differences between specialty categories were found.
Discussion: Eleven specialty categories were compared using the NEO PI-R. Numerous specialty variations were identified for neuroticism, openness, and agreeableness. The findings may be useful to medical school officials and faculty who recruit and counsel students and to students themselves as they reflect on their personality characteristics on their path to making career choices.

The hell what are they thinking, as if life is not hard enough, these idiots are actually followers of Hitler practicing Eugenism, have they forget the fundamental of human survival is the differences in our behavioral trait. Imagine after all the blood bath and struggle and u come to med school having hope of been in 1 of the member of this prestige profession, someone at the door of medical school tell u i am sorry because u are behaving as such and such, we cannot accept u, u do not belong here because u are of blah blah personality trait. Sad.................. What to do medicine have been run by some people believing they are semi god, believing they have the rights to everything.

back to usual

Haiz.......... At last 5 years of stupid suffering, i am now a doctor, doctor? Well i don't freaking care, i don't freaking care of that old old god damn old oath, but as long as i do not kill or harm anyone, i think i could just sleep peacefully evernight but that says it as the future is just some freaking dark mirror, and i cant just go "mirror, mirror on the wall, show me what will happen, blah blah blah." For people with simple mind, what i mean is i cant see the future. Oh please mind my language, is just me trying to be rebellious, what i feel people do not need doctor, they could well be their own doctor with sufficient information, since we as "doctor" couldn't tell much as to how much a patient feel.
Back to the main topic, yes i am free now, and i am free to do anything i wanted or like, besides i have recover from an mental illness which is personal. I feel i needed to restore this old blog to its formal glory, so no worries. To made it educational i will talk a little more on politics and economics. Yes economics, why? simple, all doctors are bad financial planners, they belief by just taking government salary and putting money into share, ching chang money will come and they be safe for their retirement, some just take loan, since doctors credibility is high and loan is easy to get from bank and of course blah blah blah.
I am not over praising myself, the truth is i am just an amateur and have no knowledge what so ever on economics, since i needed help myself, i am hoping someone might bump into my blog and place some real useful comment which i think is quite unlikely.